We’ve spent a great amount of time living in the RV stationary. Close to family where I’ve become accustom to seeing and visiting with them every day! Its been luxurious to watch the wheat and barley fields sway back and forth in the wind each day while enjoying my morning coffee. Its a beautiful phenomenon watching the fields go from green color to a gorgeous golden yellow color (which indicates its ready to be harvested). Giving myself such a beautiful morning scenery has helped me realize a few things.
I find that its way too easy for me to become complacent with the way things are in the present moment. I like staying put and not moving around so much. I like having convenient partial (and full) utilities where I can turn on the heater if its a chilly morning. I like leaving the jacks in place and the blocks underneath them. When we are low on food because I haven’t made it to the grocery store yet, I’ll just go inside the house and see what’s for lunch and dinner. I’ll shower inside the house rather than the RV, therefore we don’t have to dump the gray tank too often. If I forgot to grab something from the grocery store, I’ll just have so and so grab it for me as they plan to do their grocery shopping. I think complacency is natural and I am realizing just how complacent I can become. Simultaneously, complacent equals comfortable.
Even though staying put for awhile is great and probably my preference (I think), its thrilling to see, be, and experience a new place! This excitement is a great reminder that I should be willing and open minded about change. That I should actively continue to take that first step into the direction I want to be headed in life. Rather than staying complacent because its comfortable and what I know. By no means is this easy. Moving forward into the unknown can be worrisome for me.
Its really easy to fret about moving our studio apartment on wheels. I often wonder if my mind goes into a mild panic mode, such that it focuses on nonessential things. For example, I begin to feel cluttered if there are multiple things on counter tops or laying out somewhere not moved or used for days. Or, I feel like I need to dust, vacuum, or clean our bathroom areas. I think when I begin to panic, I channel that energy into worrying about unimportant things. Simply put, I begin to fret and how my brain compensates for that state of mind is by focusing my attention on the negligible items in my home. Hm. The brain is fascinating! Just fascinating! What is even more fascinating is that I have the power to change my thinking and the electrical pathways my brain has established.
Hopefully our escapades will teach me to continue to strive for personal growth and minimize falling back into old habits. That facing and going into the unknown will become less apprehensive. To embrace change! To let go of the little things in life. And, that traveling is a good vibe for my spirit!